NICU Moments

After visiting my first set of twins in the NICU for about 7 weeks before we were able to bring them home, I was hoping to never again have to leave the hospital without my babies.
That wish was obviously not meant to be. Each day I drive up to the hospital to see my two little boys, hoping we are one step closer to bringing them home. They are definitely getting bigger and growing, but we are now working on their feedings. Before they can come home they either have to nurse, or bottle feed each of their feedings, and as of yet, they are still being fed through their tubes for most of their feedings. They are getting better every day, but we just aren't there quite yet. We get excited at any amount they take from a bottle, and I love every moment I am able to nurse them, as we have had to watch them learn each little step in the process.
Although I wish they were home with me where I can see them and hold them whenever I wish, my daily NICU visits are very precious, and I cherish every moment I get to spend with my little angels. It is so calm and peaceful there with them, and I am able to enjoy quiet moments with them, that I know will be few and far between once they get home. It's hard to look at them and know that in four weeks, my time spent with them is limited to a few hours a day, missing many seconds of their precious growth. I know they will come home soon, and once they do, the real challenge begins, but I can't help but shed tears at what I am missing without them near me. Pretty soon, they will be big, full of life, and I will be complaining about them making trouble, but for now, I just want to be with my little ones and enjoy these cherished newborn moments that pass much too quickly.